Meeting of Archpriest Andrew Lemeshonok with the House
of Love of Labour Staff
Q: Father, why is it so hard to pray
sometimes?
Father Andrew: The Holy Fathers used to say, “Prayer means shedding
one's blood.” When a person prays, he has to be focused on God. If his mind
wanders, if his heart leaps and jumps from feelings and emotions, if he is
inconsistent, you can imagine how hard it is for such a person to tune himself
in to God, can't you? All that noise and vanity, all those fears and problems
around... We have to get rid of that.
As
soon as the person enters a church, everything must be left outside because
that person comes to God, comes for confession, and there is no one else in the
world apart from his ill and helpless soul. You must have heard a hymn during
the Liturgy that says, “All earthly cares now let us lay aside.” That is, we
ought to lay aside everything and enter a different world. If we stay where we
are, of course, no miracle is going to happen (I mean, the miracle of the
transformation and sanctification of a human being). It will be impossible to
overcome the gravity of earth.
Q: How can we force our sinful hearts
into praying?
Father Andrew: There are a lot of methods to do so. Most importantly,
we should not be desperate, even if we do not feel like praying on a certain
day. Your desire to pray and your self-reproach is the beginning of prayer.
Your soul already suffers because of being so weak as not to be able to pray.
It begs for forgiveness, asks God for help, and goes to church again, where it
finally receives the gracious help from Christ.
Prayer
means shedding one's blood. When one prays, he struggles with the entire world.
We break up the bonds of this world through prayer and follow Christ, whereas
the world distracts, blinds, deafens us, makes everything possible to stop us.
See what is this struggle like? If we start to pray, we acquire so much! How
does our prayer act? According to the words of St Seraphim of Sarov, “Find
peace inside your heart and thousands will be saved around you.”
We
can talk and reprimand our relatives for years that they should not do this or
that, that it is bad. But they won't pay attention to us. However, as soon as
we start to have a genuine prayer life, this will be our victory: God will act
on our side, and our relatives will inevitably change. A monastic abandons the
world but his or her prayer protects all his relatives. Being a monastic does
not mean running away from one's problems but, on the contrary, getting to the
core of these problems, taking their burdens on one's shoulders.
Q: How can we learn to pray
attentively?
Father Andrew: He who is eager to learn will learn. No pain, no
gain. When prayer becomes really important for an individual, when he
sacrifices his time and strength to it so that it becomes the most vital part
of his life, then God may teach even a baby. We all are babies now; we all need
God's help, His blessing and might.
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