July 17, 1814
My
dearest little brother, Alexander Ivanovich, Save yourself in the Lord!
I was
delighted to receive your letter proceeding from unforgettable brotherly love.
I rejoiced in my heart that you are alive and well. I would be glad to help you
with books, but it is a pity that we are so far away from each other now and
there are no opportunities for me to do so. But to satisfy your request, which
indeed is pleasing to me, along with this letter I am sending you at least a
few readings I have copied out. And yet they contain much, and one might say
everything necessary for guidance unto salvation. Let your soul make good use
of them; nourish it daily with the words of life, with prayer, and with every
good work—just as we nourish the body with various kinds of food and drink, by
means of which our exhausted strength is renewed and our life is preserved.
If the
spirit of piety is growing weaker in you, that is not surprising, because you
are found in a social circle where you both see and hear everything that is in
opposition to this spirit, and your heart participates in these things either
willingly or unwillingly. That is why I feel sorry for you. But, my little
brother, you must not entirely neglect your soul. You must somehow kindle that
spirit of piety; by a little spiritual reading, or by prayer even though it may
be brief, or by remembrance of eternity and by fulfilling the rest of Christ's
commandments, you must nurture yourself and mature unto a perfect man, unto the
measure of the stature of the fulness of Christ (Ephesians 4:13). Remember the
publican of the Gospel, who was pursuing such a shameful and pernicious career,
but did not leave off going to the temple even though his way of life was
completely opposed to that which is pleasing to God. And once upon a time it so
turned out that he pleased God much by just a few words of repentance and left
the temple justified rather than the Pharisee, that zealous keeper of the
entire law. My dear one, do not entirely quench the spirit and do not enfeeble
yourself by carelessness and by overindulging the body and dissipating the mind
in obsessive imaginings, lest you afterwards suffer the lot of the slothful
servant of the Gospel, who hid the talent of grace received at baptism, which
absolutely must not remain barren and fruitless in the soul of a Christian.
So as to
arouse our heedlessness, here is another consideration that we must always
bring to mind: that we are mortal. Our life is fleeting and most perilous on
account of the uncertainty of the hour of death. For although we know well that
we shall die, what we do not know is when we shall die—today or tomorrow,
sooner or later, during the day or during the night? This lot of each person is
completely unknown—when the sickle of death will overtake whom, and what
condition it will find him in, made ready by good works, or unprepared and full
of evil ones. For in whatever it finds a person, that is how it will deliver
him over to judgment before God, and by his deeds everyone shall be either glorified
or put to shame. And no one will help us in that hour of death, only good works
accomplished in God. Here we must discuss both good works and evil works, and
the results of each. We know from the Holy Scriptures that we are not created
just to eat and drink pleasurably, have a good time and enjoy ourselves
heedlessly. We are created for good works, through which in this brief life we
attain the eternal and blessed life to which we are all called by the grace of
God.
Our works
are called sowing, and this too is twofold—some unto the inner man and some
unto the outer man; and the differing fruits of the two are evident. "For
he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that
soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting" (Galatians
6:8). The sowing and reaping unto the outer man in this life has three
aspects—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes and the pride of life (I
John 2:16). Unless the inner man meditates upon the law of God and is nourished
thereby, unless he is strengthened by reading and by prayer, he is conquered by
the outer man, and he serves his master. Hence there are manifested works
pleasing to the flesh but hateful to God, such as pride, avarice, gluttony, the
fulfillment of all kinds of lusts, idle talk, laughter, amusements,
drunkenness, malice, duplicity, lying, envy slothfulness and others. These are
the fruits of the sowing unto the flesh, and that is why flesh and blood cannot
inherit the Kingdom of God (I Corinthians 15:50). But when the soul meditates
upon the law of God and the body is subjected to the wisdom of the soul, then
the following works are seen: love for God and neighbor, peaceableness,
meekness, simplicity, kindliness, mercifulness toward all, modesty, temperance,
chastity, guilelessness, and the rest, and these works are the fruits of the
Holy Spirit and are called the sowing unto the Spirit.
Our works
in this life are the sowing, and the future life is the harvest of what we have
sown. Whatever one sows here, that is what he shall reap there. If one hastens
to cultivate the field of his heart, to fertilize it and to sow in it the seeds
of immortal grain, he can confidently expect to see a corresponding harvest
unto eternal rest and delight. He that sows with tears of repentance shall reap
with rejoicing and "shall be filled," says the Prophet (Psalms 16:16
and 125:6), for sweet rest follows upon the labors of piety. But rest and
refreshment are denied to him who has not labored in the work of piety—he that
is idle should not eat, it is said (cf. II Thessalonians 3:10).
Dear
brother, always depict this truth to yourself, that what a man sows in this
life he shall reap a hundredfold in the future life. And check yourself daily
on the basis of this truth—what have you sown for the future life, wheat or
thorns? And having examined yourself, resolve to do better the next day, and
live your whole life in this manner. If you have spent the day poorly, without
praying to God as you should, without even once feeling contrition of heart,
without humbling yourself mentally, without showing kindness or giving alms to
anyone, without forgiving someone at fault, without patiently enduring an
offense—if instead you have given way to anger and showed no restraint in your
speech or in eating and drinking, or if you have immersed your mind in impure
thoughts—when you have reviewed all this in your mind, condemn yourself
according to your conscience and resolve on the following day to be more
attentive to that which is good and to guard more against that which is evil.
And so
ever watch over your field, my dear one, and clear it of thorns, and take heed
as a true Christian to labor not merely for the food which perisheth, but for
that which endureth unto everlasting life (John 6:27). For what good does it do
us if we fully gratify ourselves in this life with honor, glory, wealth and all
kinds of pleasures, but empty our soul of the fruits of the Holy Spirit, and
then appear before God barren as a fruitless tree which is hewn down and cast
into the fire (Matthew 3:10)? With your outer man render to Caesar the things
that are Caesar's (Mark 12:17), but with your inner man always gaze toward God
and meditate upon His law, and God will be with you.
More than
anything else, I fear lest you be harmed by keeping bad company. A companion
who always has women and good times on his mind is a bad companion for sure.
For wine and women have destroyed many, the Scriptures say (cf. Sirach 19:2,
34:25). Keep away from such people, for loose and passionate habits take root
in us quickly and easily, and it is very difficult to get rid of them. Few are
they who have entirely freed themselves from evil habits—most have ended their
lives in these passions unto their eternal condemnation, from which may the
most merciful Lord spare you and me. I trust that you have the spirit of the
fear of God by which you can guard yourself from sin and be guided toward
virtue. These readings I am sending you can also aid you in this. Keep these
precepts as well as you can, and surely "thy youth shall be renewed as the
eagle's" (Psalm 102:5).
As for
me, I am living in the same solitary place as before. Glory be to God! I am in
good health and protected by the grace of God.
Ever
wishing you well, I remain your devoted brother,
Sinful
Timothy
I bow
most deeply before you.
***
October
6, 1815
My
dearest little brother, Alexander Ivanovich,
Be strong
in the grace of Christ!
I
received your most welcome letter full of brotherly love with heartfelt delight
and sincerely rejoiced that you are all alive and well, and I thanked God for
your good and God- pleasing intention of freeing yourself from the passionate
and sin-occasioning burden of the world, which is so heavy for a Christ-loving
soul. For truly "the whole world lieth in wickedness" (I John 5:19),
and its activity is directed toward nothing else but the satisfaction of the
lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and God-opposing pride (cf. I John
2:16). With this motive the world's devotees both miserably cheat themselves
and deceive others with smooth promises. I am referring to your dealers who are
nice to you because they are looking for profit and power. On their tongue is
pure honey, but in their heart is the poison of accursed avarice, and with this
motive their mouths drip sweetness and they secretly tickle the throats of
guileless souls. But afterwards the exact opposite of sweetness results, and it
turns out that all that remains is bitter grief and aching pain. The world
promises many good things but in reality not only does it not wish to give
anything, but it even has an eye to depriving you of everything you have.
Anyone who objectively examines worldly society will come to the inescapable
conclusion that most of its activity is not only at variance with the Gospel of
Christ, but also simply inhuman. The Prophet says, "I have seen iniquity
and gainsaying in the city. Day and night they go round about her upon her
walls; iniquity and toil and unrighteousness are in the midst of her. And usury
and deceit have not departed from her streets" (Psalm 54:9-11).
So what
can one do when faced with such opposite alternatives? One can only choose one
or the other. Either one must spurn the love of God and His law for the sake of
conformity to the world, or else one must scorn the world for the sake of the
love of God. Christ our God Himself has said, "Ye cannot serve God and
mammon" (Luke 16:13). That is why, as we can see from history, those who
loved God would in various ways choose a straitened and afflicted life for
themselves after the example of the life of Christ. Some, like the martyrs,
being found in the society of the world, endured all kinds of oppression and
torture and finally ended their lives by the shedding of their blood. Others,
like the monastics, detached themselves from harmful worldly concerns and of
their own free will mortified all their carnal desires, spending their lives in
voluntary poverty, and thus they became well-pleasing to God. Others endured
hardships in other ways for the love of Christ and attained to eternal rest
after selflessly walking their own narrow way during their lives. And so you
too, my dear little brother, as you look into yourself and on the world, must
choose a way of life that is suitable for you—but be sure to follow your inner
inclination and the yearning of your spirit. With faith follow after Christ Who
is calling you, if so be that you have heard His voice in your conscience and
in your heart, taking with you that "lamp unto your feet" (Psalm 118:105),
the law of God.
Little
brother, do not fear to be deprived of worldly honor and pleasurable comfort.
If you desire to be honored by God and refreshed with eternal, blessed, and
all-sweetest rest, you must come to love humility and endurance of hardships
for the sake of Christ, Who humbled Himself and endured a shameful death for
you. Bow your neck under His yoke, "for it is good to bear the yoke of the
Lord from one's youth" (cf. Lamentations 3:27).
The Son
of God has said, "If any man serve Me, let him follow Me; and where I am,
there shall also My servant be" (John 12:2 6). And so we look, and where
is He found after His incarnation? First He is set at nought by the proud
world, reviled, spat upon, smitten and nailed to the Cross. But where is He
afterwards—where is He now? In the glory of His Father, in the festival of the
eternal Kingdom. And so notice, dear little brother, that one who wishes to be
where the most glorious and ineffable Kingdom of Christ is, can only reach it
through sufferings, both voluntary and involuntary. "For thus ought Christ
to have suffered, and to enter into His glory" (cf. Luke 24:26, 46). The
same awaits us, too. "My son, if thou comest to serve the Lord thy God,
prepare thy soul for temptation" (cf. Sirach 2:1), and so on. Yet just as
one should not be deceived upon seeing the ready comfort of this world and its
sweetness, so also one should not fear straitness and affliction for the sake
of Christ's cornmandments, since the affliction is brief, but the rest, joy and
glory afterwards are eternal. And why not apprehend the future unspeakable,
eternal bliss by enduring want and toil here, when it is clear that even if
someone here should "gain the whole world, and lose his own soul"
(Matthew 16:26), estranging it from that eternal blessedness with Christ, then
what good does it do him? Today he reigns and is exalted by everyone, but
tomorrow he hears the verdict, "Take the unprofitable servant, bind him
hand and foot, and cast him into the gehenna of fire" (cf. Matthew 25:30,
22:13).
Dear
little brother, as you behold the inexpediency of life in the world and how
incompatible it is with your good conscience, do not hesitate to lay aside
every care, and commit yourself to the will of God. Resolve to take up whatever
high-principled way of life His providence indicates for you. When I did not receive
an answer from you I was wondering whether you had received my letter, but now
I am glad that you did receive it without its being delayed. I thank you with
all my heart both for your letter and for the money—be sure to let me know
where you decide to go, and when. I receive your letters faithfully through
Father Hierodeacon Smaragd. Of all the elders I am closest to him; so write
without any misgivings. It is difficult for me to pick up letters
personally—the town is more than twenty-five miles away.
Though my
letter is getting long, I still want to add something about myself in answer to
your question about how I am doing. Thanks be to God, I am in good health, and
as for my life, the best way I can think of to describe it is as a pilgrimage
to Jerusalem, for a human life is precisely a journey. And that journey is to
the Jerusalem on high. "For here have no abiding city, but we seek one to
come" (Hebrews 13:14). Now imagine a journey—what is it like? It is not
monotonous, but varied. One meets up with mountains and forests, hunger and
cold, bad weather and storms, afflictions and illnesses, tempests at sea and
attacks of robbers, hardship and fear. I will not enumerate the pleasant things
which are also encountered even amid all the obstacles; above all, the hope of
reaching the longed-for city is an especial consolation.
See,
little brother, what a journey is like. It is that way not only in the
physical, but also in the spiritual life. Beginning in spring I took care of
the garden, digging, sowing and planting. In summer I built myself a new
solitary little cell; now I am also planting around it. During the coming
winter, if the Lord grants me the energy and health, I hope to take a rest from
all this, or rather to undertake some more spiritual labors. I can honestly
state, though, that I do not regret my present way of life or desire life in
the world. I cannot thank the Lord God enough for His great mercy to me in
leading me forth from the bondage of Egypt and making me to dwell in this
hermitage, where I wish you well and remain your devoted brother,
Sinful
T., monk
I bow
most deeply before all of you.
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